Being Girl (Long Version)

Written by Crybaby®™
©2004 - 2006

With every battered question
Bruised supplication and bleeding scraped petition
I pour myself
Into my heart-shaped tin heart
Rattling behind Adam's rib
I bake inside Your wisdom until a golden brown
Understanding smells good
My stake comes out clean
Ready to serve
Faithfully

Afraid of world being girl alone
Goes on longer then it should
Longer then I care for it to go
And I can't imagine further, rougher road
Girl can only carry so heavy a load, but your yoke is light
‘Keep on the watch',
Please be One that will stop
All crime, time will wipe away tears from this face,
disgrace to watch no more smile
When does this stop the bleed?
Turn me ‘round to sound of mind, to peace I find,
Let me do this gracefully, beg plead I cry
Clench my heart, n'squeeze feline,
Oh dear life find my reason,
find a rhyme where is mine
To squeeze me tight when I can't find a rhyme for reason?
Desperation sucks in her gut, chin up pull up,
Stiff upper quivering bottom lip; pull your self together now
‘Cuz this is where the real pain begins to hurt inside
It's gone too deep, deeper then any splitting open red sea
“Can't you see dear me?
The end will come,
Can't you see so clearly now?
Here it comes on the count of three,
The Father, Son, Holy Spirit
Are not one but three waiting patiently”

Holding back the storm
Avenge this sort of humility,
I cannot blame you
but I hate the game all the same
How do I play without losing my heart again?
All desires will be fulfilled
If this desire is taken away, then how can it be fulfilled?
Resurrection is an unknown detail

Too many variations of answers
I wouldn't know what to do if I knew anyway, I suppose

Safeguard my heart
Chest plate is all I got,
Won't give up this time
The price is high and no place left to hide anymore
Let out that groan, let go that sigh,
Try and breathe in, n' exhale
This is a sacrifice that has been paid for you and I
So sigh, smile, pick out a shiny nail

I fear the never being mother,
I'll never love another
I hover over the dwelling and it keeps me
Up all night in isolated constant fear
No one knows the end is near
Written in promise form, I pick up sword
Ark loaded two by two where is my one and only love?
Sidewalk walking being girl wanting boy
In critical times all alone I find
Hard to deal with, breathe in n'exhale
This unforeseen occurrence befalling me
Dominating me over and over
Constant fall on narrow road, leading to more scraped knee
Wipe away another tear
feel the pain hurt inside again
Craving keeps hunger within

Just give me your heart this time
Don't rip out mine
‘Cuz my heart just found comfort
Behind Adams rib again
Girl, write down broken heart,
Remove it from your sleeve, won't let nobody see,
You the one being girl, you got to prove stronger now
If you're going to carry that shield around

Girl with broken spirit, goes spiraling down
Crash head-on helmet on
Broken words go withering down onto page,
Paper was the only one who ever listened carefully.
Pen urged me to purge n' to get it out in the bright white open
What good does it do me when waking up in whimper?
Prayers fall into two-ply tissue
Universal issue, see how it's affecting me?
But if you don't see me,
how could you ever know me well?

“Hold skin bottle tight in your Hand,
Don't ever forget what's important to me,
Write it down carefully, ‘cuz this is everything
That's killing me inside this
Precious little thing You love called me
I pray this was simpler and easier said then done.”

I'm on the run for my own purpose in life
Expecting heart to be sick again, spiraling down
Gut wrenching turmoil closure
At the expense of my exposure
I cry, sowing seed, planting tree,
Pulling weed that suffocate my need
Run fingertips along the wall,
through the hall and corridor
Singing song,
humming kingdom melody,
Left behind, being girl alone